There are those who get us and those who don’t and there’s not a darn thing wrong with that. Those who believe in freedom will leave the ones they don’t get alone to freely live out their weird ass lives. Those who believe in conformity will try to tell those who are different than them to conform. This will never end nor should it. It’s there not to argue with but to be the shit that fertilizes our growth, we’re responsible for our own soil. The only thing we need to know how to do is bring the proper nutrients out of that dirt. Either we make it into soil that serves us and let it go, or we wallow in the shit and that’s just gross.
We all know people who have wallowed in their own shit while complaining about the results of doing so. If we’re honest with ourselves, we can remember times when we did so. Sometimes we have to wallow in our own shit or the shit of others before we realize what we’re doing and that’s OK. Sometimes we smell it right away. Regardless if it’s us or another person, if we pay close attention we see what wallowing gets us and we do have a choice. Some will get comfortable in their wallowing, others will do something about it. It’s the moment we realize we’re in the shit that will determine if we grow or shrink. Humans are a very interesting species indeed.
If we choose, we can draw the nutrients, or the lessons, from whatever soil we find ourselves in. Regardless of the situation or how we got there, we are never relieved of personal responsibility. We can choose not to practice it which leaves our lives in a variety of undesirable situations or we can stop blame. Once the situation has manifested, we need to do what we need to do for ourselves. If we spend our time blaming and being angry at the guilty party, we are not focusing on fixing the problem or ourselves. We are choosing to wallow. This keeps us powerless and sick spiritually, mentally and physically. The puppet show we call politics is full of fear, blame and name calling…I see a lot of encouraged wallowing by wallowers in puppet strings. There’s no nutrients there, just a poorly maintained sewage system full of toxic bacteria and bad energy.
It’s all dirt and we all get dirty, we all have our own internal battles and seeds that need to grow. What matters is how fertile your dirt is. Are you going to roll around in it, get angry because it’s there or use the fertilizer thrown your way,stick your roots down deep and let it grow you? We all have a choice.
This morning the Hubs left for work and the van broke down. He only made it about a mile away and was able to get the van back home. The hubs doesn’t miss work, he’s never late for anything. Needless to say, he was wallowing a bit and I caught myself beginning to wallow with him. If I chose to wallow with him, it wouldn’t serve either one of us or the situation. Chances are we would have ended up arguing and making things worse. I took a step back and let him have his moment. I put myself in his energy and felt what he was feeling. If I were feeling that way, I wouldn’t be ready talk about it or hear about it quite yet either.
I’m not saying this was all smooth sailing and it’s over. He’s human and although he didn’t put me down or say anything at me to hurt me, he did say some things that I had a response to but bit my tongue. I had to keep reminding myself that now is not the time, we will talk later. I couldn’t expect him to go straight into solutions at that moment, he needed time. The wound is still fresh. As a the divine masculine he has a strong will to provide and protect, when this is challenged it’s challenging for him and I need to give him his space. I compare to things that I have a strong will to do, things I’m put on this planet to do. If my ability to grow food and medicine was messed with, I’ll need some time to process the situation before talking about it also. We all have things, situations and loved ones that would really challenge us to the point of almost paralyzing us. It’s OK, have that moment, let others have it, just don’t stay there.
We do need to count our blessings in hard times. It’s so easy to be thankful in easy times. Our wonderful neighbors saw our van down by the road, it wouldn’t make it onto the farm. He thought enough of us to call and check on us. A bit later we walked to the van so the hubs can look at something. The same neighbor was on his way home and stopped to check us again. He also shared his belief in prayer and how it helped him. That was a nice reminder. The Hub’s ‘s assistant was able to pick him up in the work van so he didn’t have to miss work. We do have options to talk about as how we’re going to remedy this problem, it’s nice to have choices. All our errands for the week are done. This really isn’t all that bad, just a learning and growing opportunity. When Rick is home and settled down we will look at our possible avenues of obtaining another vehicle or fixing this one.
Being the Nature Witch I am, I see this as a new beginning. It’s a New Moon today, there is new life all around us on this little farm, Spring time is here. This is a time for new growth, new doors opening and to plant seeds. I plan to get out into the woods today, connect with mother Gaia and just meditate. Opening myself up to guidance while grounding myself to the earth helps so much in many situations. It also settles down my monkey mind so I’m able to return to the situation with a clearer mind and and focus.
It’s amazing when you learn to influence the energies around you as well as within you. I’d love to hear how you handle stressful situations. We are all different and diversity is strength so don’t be afraid to share or try what someone else has shared.
Namaste
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